2013 was a big one. Full of twists and turns, ups and downs, surprises and losses. I’d use the old cliche about emotional roller coasters, but truth be told, I stayed pretty much at the same sad, anxious, emotional level all year. I held things together by using my family and my bloggy community as duct tape. It was really hard to write this Year in Review, which is why it’s being posted so late. Lots of inward observation and reflection. Which gets a little exhausting. I’m hopeful for a happy, healthy, well-adjusted 2014.
1. What did you this year that you’d never done before?
Had to have a pet put down. Had melanoma. Had a lymph node removed. Sent a kid off to elementary school. Appeared on national television.
2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I’m sure I resolved to lose weight, as I always do. I didn’t lose any, I actually gained a small amount, but the gain has leveled off. I’m also sure I resolved to save money. We’re trying. *cough* MEDICAL BILLS CAN BITE ME *cough cough*. More realistically, I’d like just overall stop and smell the roses when it comes to my boys. And I’ll resolve to save money *this* year, because the aforementioned medical bills were recently PAID IN FULL (woooot!). Barring any injury or illness this year, we should do all right.
3. Did anyone close to you die?
My sweet, sweet kitty, Nashua Bean. I’ve had a hard time grieving for him because he was, after all, just a cat. But, also a good, sweet friend for nearly 20 years. He brought so much joy to my life, with nothing expected in return but love, food and scooped poo. He had such a kind soul, and I know he’s somewhere, watching over me.
I also lost a dear friend and favorite high school teacher to breast cancer. She was something really special, and she will be missed by many.
4. What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?
Money. A therapist. More time to myself. My new Etsy shop up and running. More blog posts. A lot less in the cancer department.
5. What dates from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
My melanoma diagnosis. The day Nashua died. The day Bowie started Kindergarten. Ferris’ first birthday. My brother’s wedding.
6. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Finally getting to the dermatologist and getting the cancer before it got me.
7. What was your biggest failure?
Not properly processing my cancer emotionally, and not allowing myself to fully grieve for my cat, and thusly letting myself fall apart emotionally.
8. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Surgery. It was a beast. And I had some nerve damage, so my leg still hurts a bit.
I somehow managed to avoid the norovirus (knock on wood) which Bowie had three times, two of those times within a week of each other.
9. What was the best thing you bought?
10. Where did most of your money go?
Bills still from having Ferris. Cancer bills. Pants for the boys. (They grew SO FAST.) Milk. Rent.
11. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Being cancer free! After spending a week thinking the cancer had spread, it was the hugest feeling of relief I’ve ever experienced.
12. What song will always remind you of 2013?
The song “I’ll Follow You Into the Dark” by Death Cab For Cutie for some strange reason always did, and always will, remind me of Nashua. I think from now on it will make me remember when he died.
13. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder?
b) thinner or fatter?
c) richer or poorer?
a) Sadder, I think. But, it was a hard year, so I’ll cut myself some slack.
b) About the same.
c) Poorer. Still. We’ll get there someday.
14. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Traveling, spending time with family, hugging my boys, exercising, crafting, reading. Writing.
15. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Yelling at Bowie. Leaving Ferris to play by himself. Worrying.
16. How did you spend Christmas?
We spent Christmas Eve and Christmas day a few hours away at my in-laws’ house. All of my husband’s brothers were there from their many scattered locations, and it was the first time in a long time we’d all gotten together, so it was a lot of fun.
It was also the first year Bowie really got into the Santa thing, and we all had a ton of fun with that.
17. What was your favorite TV program?
Mad Men. Parenthood. Orange is the New Black. Downton Abbey.
18. What did you do on your birthday, and how old are you?
I turned 34. I honestly can’t remember what we did. It was right after the cancer thing. Right before Nashua died. Sandwiched in between two major events. I think we might have gone out for dinner? Anyway, most days I can’t even remember if I’m 33 or 34, so I’m sure my birthday was as insignificant as my age.
Happy 2014 to everyone, and may it treat us all a little better than 2013 did.